Kantor Jl. Gajahmada - Sembari nunggu jam pulang sore hari : 16:24

i am angry with my wife. i am angry with my brother Bawono, i am angry with this kind of unwelling condition. how can a family has this such feeling ? i dont like it so much !!! for years i have been tried to support my family my brothers my sister. i dont want to ask anything in return. it's far away from my desire. but then until i found that i got no respect at all from my brothers or sister , it is really hurt me so bad . i dont believe that it had happened to me. after all these years i dont feel so closely desperate with this kind of condition. Teti - Dessy - Suti had seemed like can be united , after those some fight between them, finally they are understand that every people had their own style - habbit and characteristic, so you can not ask them to like and enjoy someone else behavior. 1 most important is that you should be have to respect the elder no matter what and what it is. As an elder you should look at the younger behavior who is not mature yet . so just let it be - let it just the way it is. i understand it is not easy but if you all want to do it . it can be done !
being a family is not a simple one, it is not easy when we are still a little baby / a children. only children who made the fight as habitual, then only children can make it as the way it is. and enjoy the fight everyday. for adult acting is the easy way to smooth anything. and acting is easy and we are enjoy it very well everyday. i dont know how can they can not play acting !? is it good for them ?
The moment is when Baw girl friend - Dina - seemed like can not get along with everybody. She arrogant, conceited., snooty
among Suti - Dessy and Teti. She had just take her side away from them. Unfortunately , Bawono had also take the same side as she was. then the hate look - stop speaking between one each other has become something in common. it is really bad . so bad to know that i can not do anything with that ! how come it can be happened to my brother my wife my sisters in law infront of me ! so stupid ! i must take an action !
Rasanya tidak ada yang lebih membahagiakan melihat sodara-sodara kita saling rukun, apalah artinya perselisihan kalau semua itu tidak menghasilkan manfaat ? Apalah ruginya mengalah kalau semua itu bertujuan demi kebaikan ? Sakit hati dendam benci dan tidak suka, adalah penyakit hati yang kalau dibina terus lama lama akan menimbulkan kesusahan sendiri. Tidak ada artinya. Aku kadang tidak suka pada seseorang, apa yang bisa aku lakukan adalah menjauh, tak ada terlintas dalam benak ku aku begitu membicinya dan berlaku kasar dan tidak menyenangkan. kalau saja mereka bisa mulai sama sama belajar bahwa berkeluarga dan saling menghormati satu sama lain adalah lebih baik. Tidak ada salahnya dilakukan.
Today i had an SMS from Hendro. Dewi had just delivered their second children, it's a girl ! Alhamdullillah ! We had a new baby girl again . Congratulation Dewi..... may you will be a great Mother. i had a plan to go to solo this weekend but this is far away from ibu Haji plan to visit there on friday and return back to semarang right away. it might have been good if we can stay just for a night in solo. Who knows i might be able to visit Tia house at Mojosongo. he he he.....
Last week Mas Prie Gs told me to sell out my car ! it's far away from my own dream. this car is something important for me it is more like a pride that i can finally achieved ! i can gained my respect, though i also agree with him that the car loan is more like a responsibily / bail out than assets. Day by day i must strongly manage my income well in order to cover up the payment of car loan. Almost everynight whenever i woke up in the evening, i always think about this matter. How can i reach and grab an additional income, how can i save money, how can decrease the expense and split my money to pay all of the expense without fail. So stress then i almost desperately just put this side away ! i had already 37 ! maybe it will better on the next 3 years when i was 40 ?! Still i did not put this things so seriously that this year i must put my sons to school. Again i also should have special therapy for Zidane. Must be a real head-ache !
Just let those things flows..... Life goes on !
Peace always.
Rebo Wednesday - 09/03/2006

glad i can be here